Monday, February 13, 2012

Go Forth with Faith

To give you a true picture of why this Hymn touched me the way it did yesterday morning I need to give a bit of background.
Jeron had a meeting in the morning. No big deal, this happens two Sundays a month. In fact, those are usually the weeks we don't have problems getting to church on time. We are going at 9am now, and need to be there at 8:20 so the boys can set up chairs and Jaxon can help get the sacrament ready. We have been doing this pretty successfully so far! I started getting the kids up (reminding the boys that if they wanted breakfast it was now or never!) and I got in the shower. I was a little more then half way through my shower when I heard an argument start in the kitchen. I knew there was nothing I could do about it right then, I had a choice to make. #1) I could listen to them argue and let it make me tense and upset and ruin my whole day, or #2) I could relax and use the time to figure out how to help my kids. Shockingly I chose #2!
It meant taking a minute or two with each of them as we finished getting ready for church, but it didn't really take us any longer and because I stayed calm I didn't drive the spirit away from our Sunday. And because I didn't drive the spirit away to begin with I was able to receive some inspiration! See, fighting and contention has been a REAL problem at our house lately. It is something Jeron and I have been praying a lot about. As I was talking to one of the "fighters" the answer hit me! A lot of the problems have been centered around this particular child and so they get to give the Family Home Evening lesson on helping our family! I'm hoping the lesson will help them all see it's not a bad thing to go out of our way to help other people and that it really does need to start at home.
Okay, I'm sure by now you are thinking, "A bit of background? What does this have to do with the song?"
Well, like I said, fighting and contention has been a big problem lately. It really seems to be sucking the spirit right out of all of us, mom and dad included. I knew I had been struggling with this. I knew my family was suffering for it. And then the other day I was talking to my sister-in-law and I realized even though I have my dream job of being a mom, other people couldn't tell. It wasn't that she said anything. It was nothing like that. It was more one of those tangents your brain takes. (Please someone out there understand what I'm talking about!=) Anyway, it made me realize that if I wanted things to change around my home I needed to lead out. My family needs to know they are the most important thing in this world to me. I want us to be together forever.
Now, how it all ties into the song! Thanks for hanging in there! =)

Go Forth with Faith


Go forth with faith to tell the world

Of Jesus Christ, the Lord.

Bear witness he is God's own Son;
Proclaim his wondrous word.

Go forth with hope and courage strong

To spread the word abroad

That people of all nations
Are children of our God.

With three boys and Jaxon being 15 , missions are something that are at the forefront of my mind. To make sure my boys, the girls too, are prepared to go out into the world and share the wonderful message of the gospel.

Go forth with love to tell the world

The joy of families

What better way for me to tell the world of the joy of families then for it to show in everything I do?

That we may be with those we love

Thru all eternity.

Not going to be much fun to be with my family for eternity if we aren't happy, and don't love each other, right?!

Go forth to serve and do your best

With no though of reward;

I do have to say, this is something my kids do really well. We are just trying to get them to figure out that chores are service, just at home!

Then you shall know the boundless joy

Of serving Christ, the Lord.

I love "boundless joy". What better way can you think of describing what we can have through our Savior? The things we are offered through the gospel and the atonement of our Savior. There is so much joy and peace offered to us. The amazing thing is all we have to do is reach out and take hold. I just wish I could remember to do it better!

Go forth with pow'r to tell the world

The gospel is restored,

That all may gain eternal life

Thru Jesus Christ, the Lord.

Go forth to preach his glorious truths

Of peace, of joy, and love,

That all who heed his holy word

May praise the Lord above.

Our Ward and Stake have really been emphasizing member missionary work. The gospel has such a wonderful and amazing message. I wish I did better about sharing it. I'm sure there are people out there I could/should have shared more with. I can think of one I KNOW I should have. Not that it is ever too late. I can share with those I come in contact with in the future and I can always go back and share with others.

I hope to do better at many things this coming year. I hope to be a better blogger! (Don't hold your breath haha!) I hope to be a better wife, mother and daughter. I hope to do better at taking care of myself through exercise and better eating. I hope to be a better friend. I hope to do better with my scriptures and prayers. But most of all I hope to be a better disciple of my Savior.

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Thinking Isn't Doing

I have been thinking about the blog a lot as of late. But you wouldn't know that because I haven't posted anything! Every Sunday I think about a song to post about and then don't do anything. I should be posting about school and my kids but there really hasn't been much besides the normal every day humdrum. (Although I do owe you a post about Porter and the broken hand! I forgot that I had not done that! Sorry!) But mostly I think I have been in some kind of funk. To be honest, I guess you could say I have been struggling. I have felt frustrated and very irritable. You should feel really bad for my family!
I'm not sure why I feel the need to confess all of this to whoever may read this. (Not that anyone will! It has been so long since I posted I probably don't have any followers left! =) It may be that I got on and started looking at how many posts all of you have been doing and I started to feel really guilty! I have always loved journals and family history etc. And all of a sudden it hit me just how much I have dropped the ball in this area lately, and how unfair this is to my kids. I hope to do better this year. I'm not making any promises, mind you! But I am trying! =)